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Lucy/20/England.
♥ - Thom, my best friends, my pets, tattoos, marine life and nature in general.
I love tattoos, fitness (You can check out my fitness blog here), being a dick, positivity, body modification, sick jokes, the world, being a hairy feminist, art, my job, geeking out, colour, nature, perfect grammar, wanderlust, France, the northern lights and cooking.
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Lily, you cow. My fingers look gross as.
I spent ages looking at this picture taken of me today wondering if the cameraphone had warped the image, but then I noticed that Lily’s weight looks true to life, so I must’ve changed shape a lot! I’m so happy.
A Kosovo Albanian man in the Kosovo town of Stimlje, south of the capital Pristina, tries to rescue his horse after it veered off the road and fell into a river March 26, 2008.
I would do anything within my power to save Lily if she was in trouble. Last night I had a dream that Shropshire was flooded and despite the fact my mum and boyfriend can’t swim, I drove out to save Lily. Don’t ask me how I drove an hour in water, I just did.
(via surgicalmilk)
Day 21- A picture of something that makes you happy
Lily
Day 07- A picture of someone/something that has the biggest impact on you
Choosing just one person is very difficult because my best friend, my boyfriend and my counsellor of 5 years have all had an astounding impact on me and I’m forever grateful. However, if I had to choose just one, it would be Rachael.
Rachael’s my horsemanship instructor and she completely changed my life. It might seem like an exaggeration when you consider that she helped me fix my horse, but my life ends and begins with horses. When things were really bad with Lily, I couldn’t catch her, I couldn’t saddle her and I definitely couldn’t ride her without her exploding with the intensity of a volcano. I was really stuck and it made me incredibly depressed, to the point where I was crying all the time and considered selling her.
In stepped Rachael at the time when I needed her the most. I didn’t have any money so she gave me lessons out of the goodness of her heart for free and we slowly rebuilt my fragile relationship with Lily. To think about all the amazing moments I could have missed if I had given Lily away doesn’t even bear thinking about and I’m so glad that Rachael helped me. She’s a constant source of inspiration and the person I look up to the most; she’s strong, intelligent, beautiful and has a gift with horses.
She says the transformation of Lily is all me, that she just said the right things at the right time but I think that’s an understatement. Without her, I probably wouldn’t have a horse, nor would I have a horse that used to be insanely difficult but is the perfect partner now. If she hadn’t have helped me, I would have missed so much; having Lily trot to me from the top of the field, breakthroughs at liberty, being able to ride Lily with just a string around her neck and riding her out on the roads. To me, those moments are the ones I’ll cherish the most and it wouldn’t have been possible if I hadn’t met her.
I was once told by an instructor that this horse could only ever be stopped with a strong bit in her mouth, proving people wrong is so satisfying.
Before I spent two weeks working on my position. I really need new photos, Ally!
Come on, summer. It’s cold and Lily looks so pretty with her summer coat through.
Wow
I must’ve done something to impress Arran (one of my horsemanship instructors) because he’s asked Lily and I to do some demos with him this summer, how exciting!
2011 - TL;DR
2011 has been quite the year for me. There’s been ups and downs, periods of feeling restless and as though my life is static contrasted by times of change where things have been so manic my feet barely touch the ground. I’ve learned a lot about myself and it’s probably been the best year for my personal growth, it’s been interesting finding out how much I can take mentally, emotionally and physically. I was pushed beyond my limits a couple of times and suffered the consequences making it a tough year, but all of it has helped me learn something important along the way.
The biggest accomplishments I’ve achieved this year have been with my horse, Lily. I’m finally starting to reap all the rewards from years of hard labour with her and I’m truly enjoying time spent with her. I used to dread going to the yard but now it is my retreat from the outside world, as soon as I drive through the top gate, nothing else matters but Lily and I and it has been fantastic. We’ve got some really cool things established, made some huge changes and I love this little mare more than words could ever express.
At the beginning of the year I was made redundant from a job that made me miserable. It was a little daunting initially, especially with the UK’s current economical climate, but it led me away from the rat race and on to better things. I’m self-employed now, working from home which means plenty of time to do things that are important to me, such as taking the dogs for regular walks, cooking healthy meals, working out and taking mornings off to go to see Lily. Through my biggest contract with an events company, I’ve had the opportunity to visit many places, enjoy more concerts and meet some awesome people. It’s often a tough job involving stress and putting in 110% effort for long hours, but I enjoy the freedom it offers and the variety of work so it’s been great.
Thom and I have made a lot of changes this year. As anyone who has been in a long term relationship knows, once the honeymoon period is over it requires a lot of tenacity, patience and determination to keep things in a good place. The early stages of a relationship are easy, but after two years together, we’re now in a different place to where we were before. We’re very happy, still in love and I think we’ve both realised this year the level of commitment needed of each other, the importance of communication and learned that a proper relationship is taking the good with the bad. We’ve gotten on each other’s nerves, pushed one another until near breaking point more than once, carried the other when they needed it and that’s definitely what it’s all about. Any schmuck can fall in love given the right timing, but there definitely is an art to keeping the fire going. My soulmate, my button-pusher, my fellow nature explorer, my rock and my lover; here’s to another year passed and to many more in the future.
In pursuit of achieving my career goals, I have poured a lot of time in to my work. As a result, I had to make the difficult decision to shut down my marine aquarium. I’m an all or nothing girl, half measures are not something I understand when it comes to things that are important to me and I realised that tank husbandry had become a time-consuming chore. I rehomed my fish, sold my corals and my equipment is in the garage ready to set up once again when I’m in a place where I can give the hobby the time and money it needs. I miss my clownfish terribly but it was the right thing to do this year.
Equally awesome stuff
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I got to spend some quality time with my best friend and sister. Having her live 3+ hours away is often tough, but then again it means I never take time with her for granted, which I probably would if she lived in Shropshire. When I count my blessings, I always count you twice. I love you unconditionally, you snoring chode.
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I fell out with, and made up with, my other best friend which was tough but it has ultimately strengthened our friendship, we both learned important lessons from our time apart and I’m so very happy we’re back to letting the good times roll. I love you also, you big-breasted wankstain.
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I finally got to surprise my mum with a reward for putting up with my shit for 20 years and it completely made my Christmas.
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I finished my leg piece in March which is awesome, got a neat little piece on my arm and have lots of plans for bodmods going into 2012 and stretching on for many years to come.
What I’m going to focus on for 2012
Continuing to find the elusive work/life balance that suits me while building up my new company, progressing with my fitness levels, learning how to deal with stress better, regaining my once-unshakeable kick-ass positive attitude I’m known for and hopefully fitting in some travelling along the way. Like a boss!